New Website announcement

I am very pleased to announce my new look website is now live.
Yes, The Trouble with Emma is back! I have taken the trouble to re-direct my current blogsite address that you may have saved in your bookmarks, to my new look blog too. If you have any problems with the new site or indeed posting to my new blog, please email me and i will sort it out. I wiill be blogging again tomorrow, but for now I am going to treat myself to a drink!! It's taken ages from design until now to get myself back into the scene and bring back something that kept me amused a year ago. I hope I won't disappoint myself again :)

School Governors - The sequel?

Some of you may remember my "Visit to the School Governors" experience in 2006? Well, there is a possibility I may have to return to face the Chairman this time for "absconding from school". I am working on my new website (hope to launch very soon) and am steadily building new pictures and videos are in planning. I know that I have come so far and changed a lot since my last ones and from the comments I have had in recent role plays I am able to get into headspace reality/method acting very easily now, so I look forward to the next chance to live on screen and share that with you. In the meantime I will keep you posted on my activities as they happen.

Ready for the new term

Hope you are having a good holiday break? My Easter so far has included an egg that I managed to scoff in minutes, and being treated to a lovely roast beef dinner at my favourite local chill-out haunt. Of course it wouldn't have been complete without a trip to 'school' in between, if only to remind me to get my summer school uniform pressed and ready for spanking action. Next week I'll be back in dedicated fitness training for some forthcoming scene activity. An Easter with lashings of chocolate, apple pie and ice cream was just what the doctor (my Mentor/"Dom") ordered by kindly giving me a nice break from homework :). I'm due back to a strict discipline regime next week, and with a caning to come here's some extra pictures to show you how much I'm enjoying this break while it lasts!

I saw an interesting comment from someone the other day regarding photos of girls/models that appear online. He said "I do like some of the pictures but do get a bit fed up of seeing 500 pictures of the same arse". With that in mind, who'd be a spanking model? Am I wasting my own time here guys? One guy I spoke to recently talked of that one magical shot, angle, or memorable spanking photo, or indeed movie clip, that only comes along every now and again. Through scene work I have thousands of pictures of my bottom, in action and studio static shots etc, but it's hard to select my own best portfolio sometimes. I am hoping to get more involved since my return to the scene, and would love the chance to work with the top spanking and fetish sites this year. Realism is my reality and I live every experience and emotion for the first time. I have already been in with some of the very best and earned my stripes. My many satisfied references tell me I excel, so please get in touch if you wish to be my next challenge :)
Anyway, back to that comment and a question for you all: When you download spanking pictures, what is your criteria for selection? Is it the setting, outfit, inclusion or exclusion of the spanker in the picture, zoomed in shots of her/my bottom or 'vag' shots, the level of redness or welted cane stripes, the angle taken (top, side etc), position (over desk, OTK, legs up etc).....? I would love to know so that I can give you what you really really want ... so it's over to you guys.

My new website is coming along nicely and I hope to launch it in by the end of April. In the meantime, here's a picture that may help to get your brains working overtime on another question in hand ..What goes through the mind of this naughty girl in a moment of reflection?

Bishy's drift - Still waters run deep

I'm feeling a bit guilty for neglecting my blog. That which I promised I would regularly update in bite sized snippets, but then returned to Ramblers Road with long, deep and intended meaningful prose, so I hope you are still catching the Bish drift? On the subject of blogging I handed in my latest assignment to my mentor on Monday entitled "What does the growth in popularity of personal blogs say about social interaction in the 21st century: is blogging for the writer or the reader?". To save repeating my findings I posted a thread in British Spanking that you can read about here. The blogging essay also told me a lot about the psychology behind blog writers and made me examine and question my own motivations more. My reasons and views have been well documented before so I won't repeat them in detail. Suffice to say that I see it as an outlet that helps me play my actions and lifestyle back to myself, and is another way of reaffirming that I am constantly evaluating myself and am learning and growing as a writer, and as a young lady too.

I have four strokes of the cane to come for my assignment on Blogging, for making a "significant number of careless errors of punctuation and sentence construction", not proof-reading my work adequately, using secondary sources (such as Wikipedia, which I was told not to but genuinely forgot and failed to acknowledge it in my reference), and exceeding the 2000 word limit by over 500 words. I was upset by my grade (D-) and was having a bad weekend anyway (taking on too much stuff, very stressed), so I sent my mentor three emails to protest and tell him how I felt about having to do it again and losing a weekend late night out. It was not a brat for attention (which I never do), not in any 'role' but a complete heartfelt rant from one person to another. He was very understanding and explained how grades are awarded. He explained that "A+ would be at postgraduate study level" and "this is a reality, not a game, and even a D+/C- grade would be sufficient quality for an A-level student". I have have produced better for him before and want to do so again and it was wrong of me to complain. I re-submitted my work on Monday and he said it was an acceptable standard this time. I am not to be punished for my outburst though but he made himself very clear so I know where I stand again: "I am pleased you now accept my reasoning - that working hard on your academic assignments will enhance your creative writing not detract from it. I appreciate you were unhappy with my decision but your response was unacceptable, and one that would normally be dealt with most severely. However, you are still 'finding your feet' in your return to a proper disciplinary relationship and I will allow it to pass unpunished on this one occasion. Let me be clear, however. You will never react in such a childish and petulant manner again, and you will never try to imply that I am being unfair in a decision to punish you (whether for unsatisfactory work or behaviour). I do not think I need to spell out the consequences if you do".

The good news is that some of my friends have commented that I seem more settled and am growing up a bit more over the past two months so that's good. I know it was the right decision for me to seek professional help with my personal discipline, although some I know think I am crazy, but I can't explain it, it just works for me. Some girls I know are fiercely independent and self assured and don't need guidance on their discipline like this, but I do, and it makes me feel secure, gives me boundaries and something to aspire to. The alternative is to be back in the freefall and misery I started this year in.

Pain Au chocolat, I just love one first thing in the morning with my coffee at work and although I promised myself only to have one on a Friday I couldn't resist making it a daily occurrence last week. It's so hard to walk past a bakery and even a coffee shop early in the rush-hour morning without being tempted. I'm such, a weak sucker for pampering treats I admit it, but I'm working out again next week to stay in trim. Starbucks had a great promotional idea on a very cold morning; they had this girl standing outside giving out free mini samples of coffee with whipped cream on top and it was gorgeous. I usually go for a cappuccino (sometimes with a hazelnut syrup added) but it was so nice with the cream on top so I may treat myself next time I'm in one.

I have lots to write but have saved some to post over this long weekend in an attempt to get into snippet mode at last! Have a lovely weekend and scoff yourselves, on Easter eggs or whatever takes your fancy :)!

Footless and fancy free

Strange weekend the last one, but I guess another test of my resolve in this big wide world of opportunity. I had every intention to chill, make a start on painting my bathroom (which I hate but where's a good man when you need one huh?!), and work on my new spanking website. In true 'Trouble with Emma' style everything went wrong again and I was sick with stomach pains and had to call the emergency doctor. I was better the next day though and ended up doing a photo shoot with my dear friend Uncle Jim who came over to look after me because I was so ill and couldn't get out of bed. He isn't my real uncle, but as I have lost touch with my family and never really had any close relatives, he is like the only family I have now. We met through the scene about three and a half years ago when he was looking for a 'Niece' and I am his Niece to his lifelong friends I have met. They are non scene/vanilla but understood when it was explained to them about how this relationship started. We send each other Uncle and Niece presents and cards too for Xmas and Easter, and my friends(vanilla and scene) know he is like my real Uncle too. He is a good friend and someone I can talk to as much as any of my girl friends about all sorts, and i can always relax and not have to put on any airs and graces . He is more into photography these days and asked me if I wanted some new photos to cheer me up. Being keen to extend my fetish and mainstream modeling portfolio for a change I decided to do something different and I loved every minute of it. I had bought some footless tights recently from tightsplease.co.uk and with my best Faith shoes, adapted them slightly for more effect. I can't wait for summer now to wear the other lurid tights I bought around town, with the shortest skirts of course! After two photo shoot sessions it is often the photographer's thankless task to deal with the bratty model, or in my case, Niece. Some things never change, it was great to see my Uncle again and have a friendly reminder that I need to be more careful now that I'm 'footless and fancy free' again! I can certainly recommend him as a photographer and spanker of naughty girls. So all you other spankee gurlz out there, let me know if you want to meet my Uncle and i will pass on his details:)

The hand of OH MY GOD!!

I had an interesting session yesterday with someone who I last did some stuff with 18 months ago. He has just appeared as a Dom in a spanking movie for a well-known site (soon to be released), and it was good to know that he has been keeping his 'hand' in and has lost none of his role play skills. He writes very imaginative scripts too and it is always a real test for me as a model to put my headspace in and out of his roles, change outfits rapidly and stretch my acting abilities. I like to have the script a few days before so that I can live the characters a little and try and imagine how they would feel at the moment of reckoning. Either by chance or design, some people have been able to tap into my own psyche and write roles that have a sense of deja vu about them for me. Through no fault of their own, I don't have to act but am emotionally affected by the reality, and it takes me a good while to come out of the role afterwards. I'm sure I have lived before and experienced parallel situations so certain roles (usually schoolgirl), or the way I am spoken to, can remind me of those traumatic times.

He brought along a very interesting leather spanking paddle similar to the one in this picture. It hurt like topsy at the time but left a nice afterglow as the above close up picture shows, so I am definitely putting this on my shopping list :) My bottom was still red this morning and a bit sore when I pull my knickers up or down, only this time I wasn't cheated by the Hand of God!

The Wedding crasher in fake Sloggis

As I was down in London on Friday my 'sister'/friend Jorja Minx invited to a free spanking event party yesterday to celebrate the wedding of 'Suzzi' and 'Magic Wand' from the British Spanking community site. Initially I thought I might be imposing as I like to keep a ligger free diet these days, but after 'the minx' confirmed it would be OK for me to crash the party I was like, there! I am so glad I went now though because I caught up with some friends I hadn't seen since firstly getting into the professional scene as a model, and then leaving it when I was in a private relationship for a year. I also made some new friends and will do my best to keep in touch as I said I would.

The bride and groom looked lovely in red and it is so nice when some good comes out of the community and that people can find soulmates and love outside of just sharing their spanking interest. As someone who is contacted by people in the scene quite a bit with an interest in 'playing' with me it is always hard to know if they are just looking for another spanking partner or conquest. That's why my spanking modelling side is so much easier to manage because there are no such complications and everything is on a strictly business basis. As I still need to date and have fun outside of just spanking, I have been too-ing and fro-ing again recently with the idea of going back to vanilla dating to try and find the right person for me. For me it is all about knowing if there is chemistry and shared interest with someone in terms of being proper relationship material for each other. Whenever I meet someone in the scene I always wonder if my bottom was the only thing they ever see/saw in me and as I'm so very insecure I need some convincing that we actually may have clicked as people anyway, had we met in a bar somewhere and not known of our shared interest. Conversely it is just as hard the other way round when meeting someone who does not share the spanking interest, finding out you have everything else in common, but knowing deep down that you will become tense and frustrated, get depressed and drag them and yourself down if they are never able to give you this vital fulfillment. The lucky ones are the ones that can cope or convert a partner to spanking, but I know myself that it is something I prefer to have already built in because its probably the biggest part of what makes me tick. Falling in love is the thing that makes the difference I think and if that happens with a spanko, as in the case of 'Suzzi and Magic Wand', or my other friends 'Sweetpea and Colsie', then I would imagine that is as good as it gets. Having spoken to some people in the past few weeks and again yesterday I have a fresh mind and am less prescriptive about what I would and wouldn't ever do now. A deeper exploration into BDSM territory and some of the things I categorically said "Never" to could become possibilities one day, but it all depends on the right person in a private situation. I still need time, patience and nurturing to overcome some fears but I hope I am at least more mature now to recognise I have the capacity within me to learn and try new things. For the time being though, I just want to enjoy myself with less conditions or expectations, just lots of fun!

In the morning before setting off to above mentioned party, Jorja and I went to the shops and I was taken by a market stall selling 'Sloggi' (knickers) at a fantastic price. In my haste, ignoring the yellow Reliant Robin in the distance and the seller's clear Del-Boy sarf London persona, I snatched four pairs of said bargain basement liners and handed him my hard earned cash.
When I looked closer at the packaging, opened them up and saw that they were more Bridget Jones in size and style than spanking model day/spank wear I realised it was a cotton picking scam!....well, they are not even 50% cotton but Lycra!!! Jorja and her beau spent the whole day reminding me of this and I was the butt of their fashion victim jokes. Actually on later examination they are actually quite comfortable knicks and i may wear them in a shoot just to prove that my bottom can perform under third world sewing conditions!!
The good news for me is that the real Sloggis are in the post. I bought these at the request of a photographer who wants to shoot me in them soon wearing tight blue leggings, so me and Jorja can slog it out then and hopefully I will have the last laugh if the pictures rokkkk!!

I went to a "munch" earlier in the week, for only the second time ever but as it was near to where I work in town I thought i'd make an appearance to dispel any rumours of my early demise last year. A munch is defined as 'to chew with steady or vigorous working of the jaws, often audibly – verb (used without object), Informal - a snack') although this was a spanking munch so the only chewing over that was done was said subject lol!
As i was the only girl there I had to suffer collective male observations like "why is it that girls always ask a man where the toilets are in a pub?". My brattitude told me to answer "because you are more used to cleaning them" (giggles), but the inner angelic minder of my behaviour and rules suggested I save that one for someone I really didn't give a damm for, and as the guys were all honeys I just smiled and kept quiet! It was real fun though discussing spank literature, severity in videos and real life near misses in vanillaland to which we could all relate. Maybe like the time you are going to a spank meet or event and realise at the last moment that non-believers (AKA "spank atheists" - hee, hee!) may be in the adjoining bar for a bridge evening or something! Anyway, it was nice to be there and see some more brazen and brave troops out there :)